http://reckless-eagle.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] reckless-eagle.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] entrancelogs2010-05-29 08:45 pm

A Kiss is Just a Kiss [Closed]

Who: Lithuania ([livejournal.com profile] watchful_knight) and Poland ([livejournal.com profile] reckless_eagle).
Where The woods.
When: Saturday, May 29th, mid-afternoon.
Rating: PG-13 at the very highest.
Summary: Poland and Lithuania go out berry-picking and discuss their upcoming nuptials.
the Story:

Poland hadn't realized before now just how tedious it was to plan a wedding (or something like one). He'd always liked them--you know, gathering in the church, nice clothes, pretty flowers, lots of drinking afterwards, families connecting, people feeling good--but he just hadn't realized how much work went into them. Made it a little less fun, if no less exciting. He supposed that Jadwiga and her advisers had done a lot of the planning when he and Liet had their official wedding... he missed her, God rest her soul. Oh, well.

At any rate, there was no way he was going to spend all of his time until the upcoming ceremony organizing things. It was boring. He needed to get out of the room and do something. And it probably wasn't good for Liet to work too much, either, so he had to get him to come with.

Half an hour and a few come on, Liet's later, they were out in the woods. Lithuania had a basket in one arm and Poland hanging off of the other one.

"It's totally nice out here," the blond gushed, tugging him over to a berry bush and plucking a few. They never made it to the basket, ending up in his mouth instead. "I can't believe how fast it got this warm after the frost, you know?"

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
"This place really heaths up much faster than ours do."

He smiled and snatched a few berries as well. Dropping them into the basket now would have meant losing them to Poland, so he ate them himself. The real picking would have to wait until Poland's sweet tooth was sated enough.

Being out here with Poland was, while he could not ban the list of what they still had to do completely, he could at least distract himself from it a little bit. Or rather let himself be distracted.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
"I hope it won't get too hot, I'm not sure if all the plants would survive that." especially the rye. he wasn't experienced with extremely high temperatures.

"I'm sure we can ask others for help, if it gets too much."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
Now that he was allowed to stare, the dresses hadn't lost their sexappeal, but had become much less troubling since he knew that he was allowed to feel aroused. Evenmore when a soft breeze caught the back of the skirt when Poland smoothened the front down. He laughed and held it down by stepping to the side and pulling Poland against his chest - holding it down would have been inappropriate, since it would have meant touching his hands to the other nations ass. They weren't married yet.

"We'll just do our best."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
While the change was very suddenly, and pulling away soon or dodging his touch all together had become alarmingly frequent, Lithuania had never investigated further. There were at least two reasons for it that he could think of off the top of his head: One being that Poland found it just as hard as him to balance what was still appropriate for a couple before their wedding night, and what not. The other being that, after what Poland had been through, he wouldn't want to be touched at all and just didn't say it. But... wouldn't the blond have told him so?

Maybe not. To not lose him to that, because who would want a wife or a husband that couldn't perform their conjugal duties? Lithuania could have told him that that wasn't important to him. He could not deny that he was only a man and would have liked to, but he had never needed ...that... (he still couldn't bring himself to do so much as think the word "sex" without feeling guilty) to survive before. He'd be able to go on without it. They had no need to conceive children, after all.

Squeezing the other nation's hand softly, he followed the blond boy, watching the back of his head while being dragged along. "Everything is really early here." But... He stared down at their joined hands, and his tone got more serious. "Poland?"

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
"I - can we talk for a moment?" He listened to his own words and closed his eyes for a moment. No, that had come out wrong. "I mean... I'd like to ask you something, if it is alright." No, not right, either.

"I-I mean, if you don't want to be touched by me, you just have to say so!" Oh, dear mother of God, no, that wasn't how he had wanted to say it at all! But there was no going back now. he bit his lip and looked down at his shoes, falling quiet.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 09:48 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't..." Lithuania was more of a thinker, and he fell quiet for a moment trying to form the words that he had thought up before. "I don't have to initiate contact. I can try to let you decide when you want to touch. It... I don't want you to have to remember bad things because of me."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 10:10 am (UTC)(link)
"You're not stupid." He took Poland's hand in both of his and guided it to his face, pressing the fingers softly against the warmth of his cheek. "You are still a wonderful person, my best friend and more, and you are not stupid." He still feels guilty about what happened, about what he wasn't able to stop, but he won't go on about that now. It's his problem now, not Poland's... his apologies won't help make things right again. Nothing will.

"All I want is to make you feel safe."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 11:12 am (UTC)(link)
Lithuania leaned into the touch lightly without even noticing it himself. "It's because you are important to me." And for once, he didn't react at all to Poland's attempt to change the subject. This was something that he wanted his friend to understand first. "Nothing could change that. Nothing." He liked Poland's happiness and strength, but he would still have loved him if that had been damaged. Nothing could bring Poland down forever, he just knew that.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 11:31 am (UTC)(link)
"I want to help you with it." He laid one hand gently over Polands, looking directly at him now. "I don't know if I really can, and how to do it, but I want to help. Please... please let me." It wasn't easy for Poland to have this conversation, nor was it easy for him, but he felt that it needed to come one day, and now was as good as any other time.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"We'll find a way." He raised one hand to mirror Poland's, trying to provide comfort despite the helplessness that he felt. "Would it help if we found a priest that you could talk to, or would that make it worse?" There still was that one strange priest from the future... if he was still there, that was.

He had helped Lithuania before.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"Maybe we can work on it, somehow. Just us two, and maybe we can ask Elaine for help, too, if she already knows..." He held perfectly still, only looking at Poland. "M-maybe... If you replaced them with other memories?" His cheeks heated up and but he managed to not look away. "If we take baby steps, and you can trust me and are always in complete control of the situation..." He had put a lot of thought into it. And the suggestion certainly hadn't come to him easily. What he said was highly inappropriate at this point. They were married, but ...not married married.

Yet, if it helped, Lithuania was determined to try anything he could.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know." He hung his head slightly, cheeks seemingly wanting to challenge Poland's. "I wished I could answer that question with yes, but... it is only a guess. A-an idea. But I don't know anything else."

He knew that he wanted to be with Poland in a way that a man should not be with a man now. It was hard to digure out how Poland felt about it; Sure, he had been the one to be in love with him long before Lithuania himself had noticed anything, but...

"A-and I know nothing about any of it." When he had been much younger, he had sometimes watched adults kissing each other, in a time before he had learned that staring was bad.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Lithuania smiled, relieved, and nodded. This was more like the Poland that he wanted his friend to be. Sure, it wasn't perfect, but... it felt more natural than the smiles that the other nation had shown him before. "I'll try to learn from you, then."

He didn't stiffen, but didn't move, either, trying to be as passive as he could without it having a repelling effect. He wanted to help.

And at the same time, this made him feel much bette,r much safer. As much as he hated being dragged around on the other nation's whims sometimes, having to push conversations here and there all the time was unexpectedly hard. He probably was thinking too much about everything to do that well.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-05-30 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Lithunia had closed as well when he saw that Poland did it and not yet happened them again. A happy little smile was on his lips. It didn't vanish when he realized that Poland was done for now and opened his eyes to look down at his friend.

He could have commented on the first try, but that would have made the situation unecessarily awkward. Instead, he reached up to brush his fingertips over his lips, where Poland's had touched them. The sensation was a completely different one, not only because the skin of Poland's lips had been so much softer. Also because... it had been Poland, he guessed.

/stares at last tag. This is why I shouldn't tag half asleep.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-01 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
With Poland seeming much more at ease with the situation than before and Lithuania himself knowing what he had to expect, the younger nation felt that he could stop worrying, and nearly managed to do so. As much as possible to him. But how could he worry when the blond's warm form was leaning against him while those soft, so soft lips were pressed to his. He would never have thought that a simple contact of skin against skin could make him feel so very light headed.

Before, he had had planned things out, at least most of it. Had pledged to himself that he would not initiate any contact through all of this, because no matter how good everything seemed to be going... He knew how sudden Poland's flashback to what had happened could pop up.

Yet, with Poland and his lips and Poland and happiness seeming to fill every cell of his body... All plans were gone, and without the nation noticing it himself, his hands had come to gently rest at Poland's hips, and then started to slip around the smaller nation's waist to hug him closer.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-01 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
It was strange, Lithuania thought. While they had never technically been only friends, married since the moment they met, he would never have thought that this could happen. Their marriage had been political and only that; a stronger form of an alliance, nothing more. They were both male, it should be wrong... and yet it felt very, very right.

He might be able to remain like this forever, holding the other nation close, feeling his fingers in his hair, his lips against his own. The tickling of their movement made him laugh, though it came out as not much more than a sound in the back of his throat.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
Lithuania tilted his head a bit to the side at the change, pulling away enough to speak after a moment. It would have been really ungraceful to do that while his mouth wasn't free.

"Don't try to eat me." And then he laughed, happily, raising one hand to comb the other nation's hair back out of his face. "I'm sure the berries taste much better.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 12:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Running one hand through Poland's hair, still holding him close with the other, It was very clear that he hadn't rejected his friend at all. Boyfriend, a part of his mind supplied. He should call him that. But... really? Should he? Or fiance? Or husband? Or...

Talking about nonesense was far easier than talking about those things right now, and less embarrassing.

"I'm sure you would be very fit for dessert, you're definitely sweet enough."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"But you've been eating a lot of other things too." He suddenly had to laugh as he continued that train of thought. "That would mean that Teutonic must taste like mud back home, his face has been down there often enough as of lately to have eaten some."

Carefully, to not have them stumble and fall uncontrolled, he pulled Poland down to sit on the soft moss that covered the ground of the forest. There were some berries nearby that they could reach leaning over while sitting, and right now he was content talking and cuddling. Here, picking berries wasn't as important as it was back home, simply because they could get all the food that they wanted from the kitchen.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"Plus he probably wouldn't stop shouting for that, so you'd have to gag him before to protect your ears." He sighed in mock exasperation and placed a soft kiss on Poland's forehead before letting himself fall to lie on his back. "I'd definitely prefer you to any of that."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"You have much nicer hair, too." He ran a hand through it. "And your smile is nice, and your eyes aren't that of a demon, and the person that I love is you." He made a face, half for show, half for real. "Certainly not him."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-02 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's true." He couldn't stop chuckling and reached up to run a thumb over the side of Poland's face, near his eyes. "Have you ever looked at his? They look red in the sunshine. And you're are of a much more natural and warmer color."

Somehow, he liked seeing Poland like this. He should try to make him flustered more often.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-03 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
He shivered slightly at the light touch when Poland's fingers brushed over his skin by accident., unable to tell why - he was neither cold, nor scared, nor anything else, he felt really warm and happy and content in Poland's arms... "They are? I've never paid much attention to them, I've been told that they are green, though..." He continued caressing the soft skin between Poland's ear and cheekbones with hsi fingers. "They told me it's like the sea, but yours are more like green frields on a summer's day."

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-03 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
Now it was Lithuania's turn to blush deeply, because... while he had felt flattered before, he wasn't used to getting complimented for his looks. Strength? Sometimes. Being loyal, or other personality traits? Sure. But everything else was just plain average, he knew that. Poland, sure. He was beautiful, and well dressed, and his hair was shiny and his face was about as aristocratic as it got without becoming arrogant. Or what Lithuania imagined to be aristocratic, anyway.

"You really think so?"

Knowing that he had no remarkable features, he had never really paid attention to himself. Maybe he really should make good use of the mirrors.

[identity profile] watchful-knight.livejournal.com 2010-06-03 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
Well, he thought them. And lithuania was no mind reader. He could, however, hear the other nation just fine, and what he heard was ...was just a bit much at once. For a moment, he wondered if his head would explode from all the heat and praise, and then he could only laugh insecurely.

"Are you sure?" Why was the little rose on Poland's shirt this interesting all of a sudden? "But I don't look special at all, and my hair has a really plain color, even if it is darker than it should be... And I only wear fancy clothes when you make me, and there isn't anything to really emphasize..."

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