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[When Freya learns the ... details of this particular event, she's less than inclined to participate. Giving someone who isn't prepared for it her magic sounds like a recipe for disaster, and she isn't looking to shop around for something new. What she intends to do is she intends to hide in her room until the event passes, and she isn't looking for company.

That's why when she opens her door to find Kol waiting there, she can't help but be surprised.]

Is something wrong?

What? No. [He shakes his head.] Although, I guess that's not the most uncommon sort of 'hello' in our family. [Theirs really is such a dramatic one, after all.]

You've figured out the thing that's going on right now, right? It's a bit weird, innit? [But the tone in his voice doesn't sound confused or curious-- if anything, it almost sounds hopeful.]

[Her eyebrows raise for a moment, her expression more curious to see what he's after, before she steps back to give him room to come in.]

Actually this is fairly tame for Wonderland. So far they aren't trying to kill us.

Which is a plus, really, I just did that and I'd rather not again so soon. [Joking about his death is totally the healthy way to process and deal, right? He slips into the room once she allows him access and he turns to face her, hands held up in a prayer stance.] Sister... I'm probably never going to have another chance like this again... Do you think I could possibly convince you to let me try your disk?

[Oh.

Oh.

It takes a moment for her to grasp what he's asking of her, and understanding crosses her face soon after. She pauses for a moment, one hand coming up to rest against the back of her neck as she considers. Releasing her magic into the world sounds like a dangerous affair, but she also knows how much Kol loves magic.]

Only to you. You don't give it to anyone else.

[The moment that passes as she sorts out exactly what he's saying feels like entirely too long. And her relenting feels like a breath he didn't know he was holding being released.]

Oh, come on, sister. I'm far too selfish for that. [He smiles a little.] I promise...m'not giving it to anyone.

[She nods again, before glancing up to the ceiling, as though she'd be able to see the slot in her forehead, before moving over to one of the mirrors and pushing the covering up for a moment so she can see.]

This is by far one of the strangest things the mansion has done in my short experience.

It's definitely bizarre. [He admits with a nod, watching her for a moment.] Come on, sister. No stalling, yeah? [He's completely unapologetically impatient, here, Freya.]

[She gives him a bit of a look through her reflection, before doing as requested, ejecting the disk and turning to hand it to him.]

There you go.

[In short order, he does the same, accepting her own disk as he hands his to her, to do whatever she wished with. He slips the disk into the slot and waits. It seems almost instant, the loss of his own and replacement of her powers. He feels it, that long-lost sensation of magic practically swimming in his veins. He stares at his own hands for a moment, flexing his fingers before he slowly turns his attention back to his sister, an absolutely giddy grin on his face.]

Thank you.

[He knows it's temporary, and it'll be awful to have it disappear all over again whenever she takes it back or the Event is over, whichever thing comes first. But knowing that she chose to give it to him, when it was in her power to do so goes a very long way with him.]

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[She takes his disk and slips it in, doing her own part to keep things safe, but she notices the vacancy more than she'd care to admit. She'd been without magic during AU events before, but then she hadn't been fully aware of what she was missing.

This time she is.]

Just use it wisely. Our family already has enough of a reputation in these halls.

I will, I promise. [And at another time, he might feel the need to push her for more on that second comment. As unsurprising as it is, it's still curiosity-making, and he might ask later. But for now, it's inconsequential in the light of everything.]

Good.

[She cracks her neck for a moment, settling a bit into her new abilities, before glancing back to him with a smirk.]

While you have some fun with magic, I think I'll test out this healing factor.

Don't do anything I wouldn't do. [He smirks back at her.]

I would never.

[And off she will go to dash around the mansion like an idiot. Probably run into a few walls. and we can probably let this one wrap here since it's been ages and I'm sorry?]

[Part of her knows it's a bad idea, when she finds the CD marked "magic." She doesn't know what kind of magic she would be getting, or even if it'd be something she'd be able to use. For all she knows, this could be just dumb slight of hand bullshit, but she has to try.

Magic was all she had, and she doesn't even have that to fall back on. She just wants to feel that rush again, feel that power, feel strong.

Feel like she can protect herself, for once since she arrived here.

She inserts the CD, which is probably the grossest and weirdest thing she's ever done, and just like that, there's that tingle in her fingertips again. Power floods through her and she feels like herself again, for the first time in months.

Still, as she summons the fireball to her fingertips, it doesn't feel quite the same. It doesn't give her the control that it used to. And when she hears footsteps behind her, she tenses, as though she's a child doing something she knows is wrong, and tries to extinguish it quickly before she's spotted.]

[Regina hadn't realised relinquishing her magic to Michonne to give her a chance to try it for herself would lead to a game of hide and seek. She might enjoy it more if she was on the other side, but as she's forced to stalk the halls on foot, she's really not.

And when she spots a fireball in Drizella's hand, she's enjoying it even less. This is dangerous. Drizella now has the upper hand and while she doesn't have any intention of hurting her -- for now -- the same probably can't be said for the wicked stepsister.]

I shouldn't be surprised you jumped at the chance.

[For a moment, her fingers curl as though she's going to hurl it, though it's more a defensive action than an offensive one. An instinct.

She could end Regina right now, catch her off guard, destroy her while she's being sanctimonious, but she'd just come back again and whatever good will she's trying to build with Jacinda would be gone.

The magic isn't going to last, but her actions here will.

Her hand closes into a fist, extinguishing the fire, and lets her arm drop limply to the side.]

Wouldn't you? If you had it taken from you.

[Taunting her could have gone several different ways. The way it does go is definitely surprising and Regina is inwardly glad for it. She watches the fire until it goes out and returns her gaze to Drizella's.]

Twenty-eight years taught me a few things about not having magic.

[She's leaving out the part about how she was addicted to it, even after all those years.]

Is having it back everything you thought it would be?

Yeah, except you gave it up and got it back when the curse was broken.

[Regina cast her curse knowing full well what she was getting into. She knew that she was traveling to a land without magic, and Drizella was did the same - except she wasn't expecting Gothel to stab her in the back.]

Gothel stole mine and gave it to someone else. I'm not getting it back. Ever.

[But that isn't the point, or Regina's actual question. She glances down at her hands again.]

Kind of wondering what the point is now, though.

If you really think it was that easy, you aren't half as smart as you think you are.

[She knew what she was getting into, yes, but she was addicted. To the darkness, to the power. In the end she went through with it, but it doesn't mean it was easy.]

And if you really think that's true, I'm embarrassed to have been outplayed by you. Eventually.

[Her nose scrunches up. Ugh, time shenanigans.]

After everything you've done, you expect me to believe you're going to give up? Just like that?

What exactly do I have to gain by continuing to piss you all off?

[It's an honest question, because she really doesn't see it right now.]

You know, it was never really about you, Regina. I needed you to cast the curse, sure, but ... it wasn't about your suffering. At least not for me. I even woke you up, eventually. To try and keep the curse going.

[To keep Henry from kissing Jacinda, and keep Henry alive, but she's not going to try and pretend that there was any kind of nobility in her decision. It was about her revenge that she was so convinced she was going to have.]

I didn't hate you. I was pissed at you, for a really stupid reason, but I didn't hate you.

[Instead, she twisted it so that it was the other way around.]

That's not what I meant.

[Granted, it ended up being a good way to get Drizella to start talking about herself. The more Drizella talks, the more Regina begins to understand why she took the girl under her wing in the future. Will take her under her wing. Whatever.

It's like looking into a shattered mirror. The reflection is there, but it's splintered. Distorted. Reflecting the bigger things but getting the little things wrong. She hates Drizella for what she did to Henry, for what she did to everyone, but she understands. God, does she understand.]

But that attitude? That's exactly what I mean. Are you honestly going to give up on your magic after everything you did to get your revenge?

Magic isn't going to make my sisters hate me less. It's not going to turn back time to fix what I did to Henry.

[She shrugs.]

Originally I dove in to magic to protect myself from my mother. That's why I got you to teach me. But I'm not stupid. If I went sniffing around for magic, it's going to make me seem like more of a threat to you, not less.

It's not the magic that makes you a threat. [It definitely doesn't hurt, though.] So I don't care if you get it back or not.

[What concerns her is the thought that Drizella might have given up entirely. Not because she wants to help her back onto the righteous path or any nonsense like that, but because she knows how dangerous people with nothing left to lose can be.]

Do you actually want to fix everything you've broken?

[She pauses for a moment, unsure if Regina is really giving her the opportunity or if she's just testing her. Maybe it's a little bit of both. But it feels like a trap, so she's careful about her answer.]

Is there a way that I even can?

[She can't forgive Drizella for what she did. That much is clear. But she does know that everything she did was unforgivable and even if people didn't forgive her, they still gave her a chance. Eventually.

But ultimately, it's not her that needs to forgive Drizella. Not really.]

There's always a way. But walking that path and earning it will one of the hardest things you'll ever do.

Well, upside, I'm not afraid of hard work.

[Her tone is a bit dry, but it's true. When she sets her mind to something, she usually gets it done. But she also knows this isn't something she can force the way she did the curse.]

Downside, it depends on other people's feelings which I mostly suck at.

You'll learn. Over and over until it finally sticks.

[She almost considers leaving it at that, but a stray thought makes it stay.]

Was it everything you thought it would be, in the end?

[She pauses for a moment, before shaking her head.]

I thought it was. But looking back on it, it only really made it clear how lost I really was.

[A beat.]

Still am, really.

[Satisfied with that answer -- how could she not be, god knows she felt the same way for so long -- Regina nods. There's a remark that could be made about being lost and in Wonderland, but she refrains.]

You're in good company. [It's complicated, but.] I believe you. Just don't make me regret it.

[She swallows hard because she's not about to make promises she can't keep, but at the same time:]

I will do my best.

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