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Entry tags:
- #open,
- ahs: misty day,
- dangan ronpa: kiyotaka ishimaru,
- dangan ronpa: kokichi oma,
- fables: grendel,
- gravity falls: dipper pines,
- gravity falls: mabel pines,
- gravity falls: stanley pines,
- gravity falls: wendy corduroy,
- jjba: jolyne kujo,
- marvel: natasha romanoff,
- marvel: steve rogers,
- mlp: starlight glimmer,
- mlp: sunburst,
- newsflesh: georgia mason,
- newsflesh: shaun mason,
- outlander: bree randall,
- outlander: claire fraser,
- outlander: jamie fraser,
- over the garden wall: wirt,
- psych: juliet o'hara,
- steven universe: steven universe,
- the vampire diaries: klaus mikaelson,
- the walking dead game: clementine,
- the walking dead game: louis,
- the walking dead: michonne,
- umineko: ange ushiromiya
+ Guilt Runs Deep
Who: Everyone!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:
Welcome to the gathering post for the event. Please see the plotting post for more information + the bulletin board link. Have fun!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:
Welcome to the gathering post for the event. Please see the plotting post for more information + the bulletin board link. Have fun!
{Guilt reminds you to try better next time | Cisco Ramon | OTA
The first cycle is met with a well of confusion, no understanding of what's really happening, or more importantly, why he's suddenly reliving these moments again. But as it repeats again and again and again, realization dawns.
He thinks maybe the goal is to fix it, somehow. Getting a do-over isn't really the kind of thing that seems possible, but it does sound probably to the way Wonderland works at times. Cisco tries, over and over to change things--
He smudges the corrected calculations, in hopes he won't remember it later when he needs it and that he won't be able to make the changes.
He tries to walk out of the lab and go literally anywhere else in the mansion, only to find himself walking back in seconds later.
He tries to type a message for Fitz to find during the final checks later. CHECK THE CALCULATIONS. THEY'RE WRONG. IT'S MY FAULT. I'M SORRY.
But still, no matter what effort he puts in to make things go differently, he's only faced with Fitz reminding him to go smallscale, the portal being opened, and havock being released on Wonderland for a lie he--and his too trusting, too squishy heart--allowed himself to believe.
He tries different things in iteration after iteration, but in the end, he gives up, gives in. It's with a heavy heart that he quietly admits, "It's a fixed point in this reality... I- I can't change it." and lets his forced-autopilot take over, watching helplessly as it all continues to happen over and over again.
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That's the missing piece. You're Inhuman and he was helping you hide your status.
[Typical, really. It makes him want to vomit.]
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M- We call ourselves metahumans, in my world. [The correction is a gentle one. Like the distinction really matters. Like this shell of his friend even cares.]
It was still new, I still barely understood what I was capable of then. [He turns in the chair toward the other man, his expression cooler than it might have been if he were still the same version of himself that had lived through all of this.] That's not really the case now.
[While it isn't a threat, nor is it leveled as one even in a secondary way, it might be seen as one from the perspective of someone who finds non-humans to be a threat.]
But it doesn't matter. [He waves one hand, indicating the room as a whole.] None of it matters. It's a fixed point in Wonderland's timeline and it can't be changed. [Thanks to his own world, and his understanding of how those things worked, that's the best explanation he's been able to sort out for himself, anyway.]
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His face twists into something like horror and disgust at the idea.] You're sick. What the hell is wrong with you?
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[He moves through the space, pausing to sneer at the others gathered in the space. Weak, all of them.]
You all claim to be scientists. Do you mourn the rats required for safe testing? The good that comes from the research far outweighs the messes along the way.
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[He looks back to Cisco then, pointedly.] You may as well be a chimpanzee toying with a typewriter.
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It's uncanny, really. It's almost just plain-old suspicious. Maybe whenever he gets out of this timeloop, he'll talk to Freya. That sounds like a good idea. It doesn't quite line up with the sort of thing Dr. Fitz would have done-- mingling with the lesser beings for stretches of months? Not really his style. But so many things about the man standing in front of him are so eerily similar, it's too comparable to miss.]
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Still, he remembers the event, and the chaos and destruction that had followed. Remembers finding out what had happened, and how, and who. He'd been pissed at the time. Had done some yelling.
But Cisco is his friend, and he's beat himself up enough about this.]
Accidents happen, man. People make mistakes.
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Most people don't make mistakes that big, though.
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[There's a pause and he debates the ask, but he's too curious not to--]
Were you stuck in one of these?
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Yeah. Real good times, huh?
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The Wonder Twins talked me out of it after I did a few loops.
[Don't worry, Cisco. He volunteers his trauma.]
I wish they hadn't had to see it, though. I got a solid section of Oakland and a good friend killed. I know they're not actually twelve year olds anymore, thanks to Wonderland, but I still wish they hadn't had to see it happen. Hell. I wish I hadn't had to see it happen.
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"Okay, so-- what, I'm just supposed to forgive myself?" How does that even work? Is it a feeling of peace? Does he have to say something to confirm it? Wonderland, why are you like this?
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