+ Guilt Runs Deep

[vitaelamorte]

Who: Everyone!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:

Welcome to the gathering post for the event. Please see the plotting post for more information + the bulletin board link. Have fun!

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[choosetruth]

"Yes." She holds the skirt to her chest. "I didn't know what it would lead to. I couldn't have known."

And yet, here she is reliving it anyway.

[beatupgrass]

"Well, clearly you got some unresolved issues to deal with, otherwise you wouldn't be here. I just got out of mine."

And it wasn't easy to break out of it either. He doubts it'll be easy to get Georgia out of it, because if she's this logical about it, then clearly logic doesn't work.

[choosetruth]

"How?"

She has tried. She knows it's an event and she knows it's not real and it keeps happening. Reminding her how everything was her fault.

[beatupgrass]

"I don't know! I had to, like..." He stares at his hands as he tries to parse what he actually did to break out. "I had to accept that what I was doing was a good thing and how bad it turned out in the end don't change that I was needed where I ended up."

Which sounds like an easier thing to accept than it really was.

[choosetruth]

She turns around, looking through the door that should lead to Shaun’s room but instead just leads to devastation and dead bodies.

“I’d probably make the same decision, even knowing what I know now. That’s the awful part. I have so many regrets, but I can’t even see what I could have done differently and stayed myself.”

[beatupgrass]

"Well, you're doing better than me. I came up with so many ways I could've done it differently and then I couldn't do any of 'em."

Which really begs the question of what the problem here is. "If you know that, then why would you still be here? What else is there?"

[choosetruth]

"Because what sort of person would make the choices I made and not even want to take it back?"

She turns, catching a glimpse of herself in the reflection of her monitor. Her eyes turn from black to brown to black again. It wasn't even really her who made those decisions, but they're on her now.

[beatupgrass]

"A person who ain't bogged down in the past? Wanting to change it won't make it change, Georgie. It'll just make you miserable. It's like all the shit you told me after Yondu died."

He shakes his head, his gruff tone betrayed by a nearly heartbroken look. "Survivor's guilt's a hell of a thing."

[choosetruth]

"Don't I know it." She's survived so many people. Even herself. Technically most of those deaths came before she even existed, but she remembers being the person who let them die. "Never be a leader, Rocket. It sucks."

[beatupgrass]

"You're tellin' me. The first time I tried to be the captain, everyone but me and one other dude frickin' died." Well, he doesn't know about Quill and the others, but odds aren't looking good. Thanos came to Earth with all the stones, which means the people who were supposed to be stopping that failed. And failure doesn't usually come with remaining alive.

[choosetruth]

"From what I understand, that's not so much your fault as the fault of the force you were up against."

Could the same be said for her? Maybe. But she's always held herself to a different standard than everyone around her.

[beatupgrass]

"If I remember correctly, there was a force up against you that weren't exactly natural, Georgia. It ain't like it was the zombies that frickin' got you. It was people."

Bad people. People who wanted things a certain way and were willing to cull people to get it, so... Not unlike Thanos, really.