+ Guilt Runs Deep

[vitaelamorte]

Who: Everyone!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:

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[entreats]

[ What is it with Wonderland and half of the people there being from worlds where people just summon weird beings to fight for them out of the blue...

Not the main concern here though. That would be getting Jolyne out of this. Preferably without having to see this whole scene play out again, but she's pretty sure she isn't going to be able to get this done before that mummy-ish thing strikes again. It'll happen soon enough, judging by how fast things are moving now. ]

Then.. even if you couldn't do anything about it right at this moment, you still tried to do something about it afterwards. You were fighting with that priest. [ Or.. well, it sounded more like the priest was after Jolyne, but.. details! ] You're putting in effort to set things right.

[uncoils]

...yeah, I just wish I could've done more, and before everything goes to shit.

[Not just about this, but about her other friends too. But maybe if she could've done something here, they'd still be alive? Then again, if her dad had gotten her out of prison like he'd planned, she probably wouldn't have met them.]

I'm just always reacting to things, even when I think I'm chasing him, I'm usually left reacting to whatever terrible thing he's done.

[Kind of sucks when the story seems to be on the villain's side.]

[entreats]

One day it's not going to be like that though.

[ It's unusually optimistic by Ange standards, yes. But she's much better at applying optimism to other people's lives - or the lives of people she'd like to see better than they are right now, anyway - than to her own. Jolyne had said things weren't exactly going well with trying to deal with that priest guy, sure, but.. ]

Life is just.. It's just a series of really shitty moments until one time something goes right. [ Or more or less "right", considering that moment for Ange involved her dying. But it still applies, kind of. ] It'll happen for you too, and then you're maybe even going to feel kind of dumb for fussing so much about this moment.

[uncoils]

...man, if that's coming from you, I really hope that's true.

[She still doesn't sound so sure. She's got enough evidence to think things don't actually work out, but she still hopes they do.]

It'd be nice to look back on this and know that even though it sucks, that asshole didn't get away with it.

[entreats]

It'd be a relief, right?

[ Especially since judging from the things she's heard from Jolyne here and there, the other girl will probably have a lot to look back on with that idea in mind. ]

That's why.. it's hard, but it's better to not look back on these things while you just feel bad and guilty about them. Try to keep that idea in mind instead, even though it's just a possibility.

[uncoils]

...yeah.

[She still can't help but wince when her dad passes out, but Ange's words make a lot of sense and help her at least manage feeling terrible at this, so the scene doesn't replay this time, changing back to a normal Wonderland room.]>/small>

Thanks, I don't think I would've gotten out of that one on my own.

[She's grateful, it's just...]

Not sure what I would've done if I was stuck watching that for however long this lasts.

[entreats]

[ Phew. Ange doesn't really look relieved - because when does she ever show much emotion, really - but she does really feel that way regardless. Who knows what could've happened if she screwed things up back there.

But she seems just as calm as ever as she replies. ]

No problem. We at least have to help each other out in a place like this, and I didn't have anything to deal with this time. [ Which she's grateful for, since watching someone she cares about die over and over like Jolyne had to isn't exactly an activity Ange would enjoy. ]

You can just repay me next time.

[uncoils]

Yeah, I can do that. I just hope I don't have to.

[If Wonderland could just kind of not with these grief events or hey what if your life turned out differently but still sucked, she'd appreciate it.]