+ Guilt Runs Deep

[vitaelamorte]

Who: Everyone!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:

Welcome to the gathering post for the event. Please see the plotting post for more information + the bulletin board link. Have fun!

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[choosetruth]

“Maybe we shouldn’t have.” She turns towards him, away from the Shaun in her memories, meeting his eyes. “I’d still be alive. The original me would still be alive.”

[adaptiveimmunities]

"And maybe you wouldn't. Maybe it would have been something else, and we wouldn't have had a second chance at all, because no one would have cared what happened to us." People with reservoir conditions are dying at an unprecedented rate, and she could have been one of them, and they never would have known why. "We can't turn back the clock, George."

[choosetruth]

"I know that. That's not the issue." She swallows, stepping towards him, reaching for his hand. "I'd do all the same things. It wasn't even me and I hate everything that happens but I can't imagine choosing differently."

Not without losing herself.

[adaptiveimmunities]

He takes her hand and squeezes it. "So what's the issue?"

[choosetruth]

"What sort of person does that make me?" She looks up at him with raw vulnerability before shutting her eyes and looking away. "The amount of people we got killed--our team, Oakland, Florida, me, and I'd do it again. I know what we got wasn't worth it, but I'd still fucking do it."

[adaptiveimmunities]

"The human kind?" He smiles a little sadly. "I don't know, George. I sort of think that if you wouldn't change anything about your choices, you probably did the best you could with what you had. That's really all anyone can ask, isn't it?"

[choosetruth]

"Even when those choices got me killed?"

She's the one who died, but he's the one who had to live alone. She's under no illusions over who had it worse.