entrancelogs | + Guilt Runs Deep

Does it matter right now?

[ Especially since she's not sure if Jolyne has reached the conclusion of this being another weird Wonderland thing yet, and she doesn't want to waste time on explaining it. Jolyne recognizing her means she's at least on the right track.

Besides, she figures it'll be obvious enough to Jolyne that Ange is not really part of this memory when Jotaro is completely ignoring her presence. ]

You know this isn't the present, right? This should be something that's already happened to you.

...yeah.

[She knows that much. It happened, all right.]

But I can't make it stop. It just keeps happening, no matter what I do.

[And it's super upsetting every time and she's not sure she can take an entire weekend of this. Hoping for a way out, she takes a few steps towards Ange, but finds herself unable to stop, passing her and tripping down the stairs as the guiltfest resumes.]

Shit!

[Definitely not her finest moment and Jotaro would seem to agree if the blank look on his face is any indication.]

[ Ange winces just a tad in sympathy when Jolyne trips down the stairs like that. Which is immediately followed by a side eye in Jotaro's direction when that blank look is on his face in response. Can he not notice that happened since the memory can't be changed, or is he just not reacting? Because if it's the latter.. not cool, dude.

She doesn't just stand around though, instead quickly moving to the other girl to try and help her up. ]

From what I've seen from others, you can't change what happens, yeah. But you can still make a change. [ Even if Ange doesn't want to spell it out too directly - who knows if she'll somehow make this whole thing screw up if she's too direct and trap Jolyne here indefinitely. ] How did you feel back then? When all of this happened for real?

Confused but mostly pissed off. He wasn’t around when I got sentenced, wasn’t around when I’d been arrested before, or when I was a kid, and then he shows up out of the blue when all this confusing shit is happening.

[Jolyne doesn’t entirely realize it, but she’s more or less continuing to act out the scene, going on about all the times Jotaro wasn’t there. Who doesn’t seem to outwardly react to the list of times he let her down. Now she knows he cares and always did, but the stoic badass look did not help at the time.]

And then…he gets…no, he got hurt trying to save me from shit I didn’t even understand. Stuff I didn’t want to understand because I was too busy being pissed at him.

[Her voice is strained and she’s visibly upset thinking about it. It’s something fixable, but it’s not something she’s seen fixed yet. And even if it’s fixable, seeing her dad get shot and have his memories ripped out by a mummy because he tried to help her? When she thought for most of her life that he didn’t care? That’s pretty brutal.

And because the scene doesn’t pause, up ahead past a barred gate dividing the cellblock, a guard with pink hair shoots another guard because confusing canon stuff must continue.]

[ It definitely feels like a misunderstanding. Understanding family's intentions deep down.. must be hard? It's kind of hard for her to relate on that part when Ange grew up without her parents, and she doesn't even want to start trying to consider this sort of stuff when it comes to Eva instead. Nope, thanks. ]

So you wish you could've stopped this back then, right? [ Just as Ange is barely done asking that question, there's the guard suddenly being shot. Which makes Ange look-- well, not startled, considering the amount of violence and gore she has seen before, but definitely a bit more agitated.

She's trying to help out here, memory!! Don't you interrupt her like this!!

Instead she quickly points at it, knowing things are about to get hectic. ]

Stopped that?

Not just that...

[Jolyne doesn't really do too much during this part, so the guard with the gun takes a few shots at them. But all of a sudden the bullets go off to the side. Like something knocked them aside in an instant. It'd probably make more sense if she could've seen her dad stop time and deal with them, but she couldn't.]

..but that guy too.

[She looks past Jotaro towards that mummy looking thing from the initial description of the scene crawling down the wall towards Jotaro.]

I didn't see him before, and I was so mad about dad being here, I couldn't really do anything about the guy shooting at us or notice Whitesnake. So dad gets hit by both of them trying to protect me. I just wish I could've done something instead of it all just happening around me.

Edited 2019-03-09 02:55 (UTC)

[ Yeah, sure sucks when you could've done just one thing to protect your parent(s) and keep them from.. - well, getting hurt, at least, if what Jotaro did there during the earlier loop wasn't just downright dying too - and you didn't do that one thing. Ange gets it, even though she's kind of made more peace with her own instance of it.

But that wasn't easy. And she isn't sure if she can get Jolyne to do the same, but.. well, got to try, right? ]

Does all of this have to do with that priest guy you talked about? [ Are ~~oddly dressed~~ mummies a priest sort of deal? Ange has no idea, but it'd feel weird for two of the big things she knows from Jolyne's life to be totally unrelated. ]

Yeah, it's his Stand. Like the purple guy dad's going to use to punch away the bullets in a second.

[And sure enough, there goes the guard firing again, Jotaro suddenly appearing in front of Jolyne and Star Platinum punching the bullets away.]

[ ~~What is it with Wonderland and half of the people there being from worlds where people just summon weird beings to fight for them out of the blue...~~

Not the main concern here though. That would be getting Jolyne out of this. Preferably without having to see this whole scene play out again, but she's pretty sure she isn't going to be able to get this done before that mummy-ish thing strikes again. It'll happen soon enough, judging by how fast things are moving now. ]

Then.. even if you couldn't do anything about it right at this moment, you still tried to do something about it afterwards. You were fighting with that priest. [ Or.. well, it sounded more like the priest was after Jolyne, but.. details! ] You're putting in effort to set things right.

...yeah, I just wish I could've done more, and before everything goes to shit.

[Not just about this, but about her other friends too. But maybe if she could've done something here, they'd still be alive? Then again, if her dad had gotten her out of prison like he'd planned, she probably wouldn't have met them.]

I'm just always reacting to things, even when I think I'm chasing him, I'm usually left reacting to whatever terrible thing he's done.

[Kind of sucks when the story seems to be on the villain's side.]

One day it's not going to be like that though.

[ It's unusually optimistic by Ange standards, yes. But she's much better at applying optimism to other people's lives - or the lives of people she'd like to see better than they are right now, anyway - than to her own. Jolyne had said things weren't exactly going well with trying to deal with that priest guy, sure, but.. ]

Life is just.. It's just a series of really shitty moments until one time something goes right. [ Or more or less "right", considering that moment for Ange involved her dying. But it still applies, kind of. ] It'll happen for you too, and then you're maybe even going to feel kind of dumb for fussing so much about this moment.

...man, if that's coming from you, I really hope that's true.

[She still doesn't sound so sure. She's got enough evidence to think things don't actually work out, but she still hopes they do.]

It'd be nice to look back on this and know that even though it sucks, that asshole didn't get away with it.

It'd be a relief, right?

[ Especially since judging from the things she's heard from Jolyne here and there, the other girl will probably have a lot to look back on with that idea in mind. ]

That's why.. it's hard, but it's better to not look back on these things while you just feel bad and guilty about them. Try to keep that idea in mind instead, even though it's just a possibility.

...yeah.

[She still can't help but wince when her dad passes out, but Ange's words make a lot of sense and help her at least manage feeling terrible at this, so the scene doesn't replay this time, changing back to a normal Wonderland room.]>/small>

Thanks, I don't think I would've gotten out of that one on my own.

[She's grateful, it's just...]

Not sure what I would've done if I was stuck watching that for however long this lasts.

[ Phew. Ange doesn't really look relieved - because when does she ever show much emotion, really - but she does really feel that way regardless. Who knows what could've happened if she screwed things up back there.

But she seems just as calm as ever as she replies. ]

No problem. We at least have to help each other out in a place like this, and I didn't have anything to deal with this time. [ Which she's grateful for, since watching someone she cares about die over and over like Jolyne had to isn't exactly an activity Ange would enjoy. ]

You can just repay me next time.

Yeah, I can do that. I just hope I don't have to.

[If Wonderland could just kind of not with these grief events or hey what if your life turned out differently but still sucked, she'd appreciate it.]

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